Le sigh

Another week another next to no hours of work. Next week I'm scheduled to work 21.5 hours. That's taking shifts at the Downtown store as well as working at Rgate. So that's really benefial. Working at that second store. I could lose my benefits and I could lose my foodstamps because I'm not getting any hours at *$. There's not too many options now-I can't live on the wee pittance I am getting from WDEM-who weekly manages to forget my pleading for more hours because I have bills to pay and I am trying to support myself and could she live on $120 a week? AT BEST that is what I am getting with the way she schedules me. I'm getting suspicious to be honest of her motives. She's hired A LOT of kids. 18-19 year olds. People that are still on their parents' insurance and don't need anything but spending money. She's hired just a plain lot of people. We have something close to 2 dozen people on staff. I'm getting 19 hours a week. And this week thanks to getting hurt I won't even get that unless a miracle happens and someone gets sick. That's where it's at-I am hoping someone gets sick so I can get hours so I can keep my insurance and foodstamps. If I lose my dole money I'm toast. I won't be able to make it another year like this. Not working at *$ I won't anyway. It's depressing and it actually got one of my buddies at work pretty pissed. JD-he doesn't like WDEM either, she doesn't like him so they're mutual, I don't know why they don't get along. JD is a great guy-a dumb kid sometimes but he is real and he works hard-going to school and working he's not perfect but he's 19 so give him a break. Considering WDEM is 28 and can't manage to work a full work week fuckin ever I think she should give people a break when they do something really lacking in quality thought processes. But he even talked to PAM today about how it's offensive that I'm at risk of losing my benefits cuz WDEM can't say no to anyone and hires every person who applies for the job. He doesn't want me to leave and go to another store. No one WANTS me to leave but I have to come up with a way to make enough money to survive and thanks to WDEM what I'm doing now doesn't seem to be it. Da says wait and be patient. *$ offers a lot of good to go with the bad. I should just go with the flow. That all it takes is one person to quit at the Downtown store-but who would quit there? The hours are phenomonal-it's just shy of a normal job like normal people work who in their right mind would give that up? That-is my concern. That and the fact that they could easily do what WDEM has done and hire people that cost less than me to fill the void. Every week I argue-but she doesn't understand. She says I told her I only want to work 3 days-NO! If she can't get me any hours then no more than 3 days-why waste my life at a job for no money! She says she thought I was still in school and she was trying to not stress me out. One word-LIAR. You're trying to re-convince me of yr greatness. Just like when we all commented on that time you manged to show up in dress code and you said "I wear this outfit once a week, you just don't notice." Right Heather. We don't notice-we experienced a folie a vignt quatre. (24 of us managed to forget the same regular event) Or yr so full of shit you believe yr own lies. I suspect the latter.
The strangest part of this? Because I have been working so little I have been doing NOTHING. I have skipped shows, refrained from buying needed cleaning products, all of that and because of that I have a TEENY bit of money aside. Enough to get me through a month of not working on the hopes that money may get better in June. Now, if it doesn't then there is the problem of what am I going to do when my TEENY bit of money is gone? Starve? Beg Daddy and Mommy for help? Look for more work? It's all quite fascinating and quite unnerving.