I don't want to push it until it breaks

"You take care of yourself. You eat right, you excercise. You work full time. You take care of your dog."
"A lot that matters."
The question is, of course, what do I expect? A parade?
So, I do what seems right. Big party for me any day now. Punch and pie for everyone.
Am I not the person that has stated repeatedly and with pride that whatever might be wrong with me I pay my bills, fix my meals and take care of myself. It's not like I'm hurting anyone but myself. Hell, except for here, is there a single place where that information would be available?
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"So, I'm really fucked up right now."
"Any idea why?"
"Because I'm weak and I suck. That would be my guess."
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"Trust no one. Everyone I care about I end up hurting, or hurting me. I can't deal with that. So I stay away from people. It's easier to be alone than to risk that kind of hurt. That's why I don't have friends."
"You have a friend."
"For now."
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When I stopped at Kroger for milk and bread-I locked my keys in my truck. It took me until the door was shut before I realized what I'd done. So I had to call AAA.
The AAA guy pulled up. I wsas standing by the truck, feeling basically awful. Probably looking the same.
AAA guy got out of his truck and took out his tools and a bottle of water.
"This is for you," he said, handing me the water. Something about that seemed like the nicest thing anyone could do for me right then.
Odd what seems important.
It took him seconds. Maybe less than that to pop the lock.
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I was sitting in the Nashville B-dubs losing at trivia. I usually win at trivia-I started late. Actually, I answered all the questions right. But someone (Dave) had 4 questions and answers on me. I couldn't catch up. Stupid Dave.
"Everybody's dead Dave."
"What, Polsky?"
"He's dead, Dave."
"Jones-y?"
"Dead, Dave. Everybody is dead, Dave."
"Not Kochanski."
"She's dead, Dave. They'll all dead, Dave. Everybody is dead, Dave."
That's really only funny if you're a specific kind of nerd.
Not the kind that is looking forward to a Thanksgiving day viewing of My Best Friend is a Vampire.
The latter is awesome on a lot of levels. That's the best vampire movie in the land. The former--I didn't mention what was the former. Did I? The former probably mocks the awesomehood of Robert Sean Leonard's early career. That is so not awesome.
"I hate working on Tuesday, because I miss House."
"You have a TV, turn it to Fox and watch the ep."
"That friend of his is something, isn't he?"
"An awful person needs a really decent person as a friend. It makes him sane."
"I think he's awful. But I love the show."
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I've got 2 new pairs of glasses. I'm going to have to wear them out in public in case the wrong script is what's been causing my headaches. I haven't worn glasses to work since I've been where I am. But, if it takes away the headaches...Looking adorkable (at best) is worth it.

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"Have you ever been in love?"
"Yes."
"How did you meet?"
"She shot me."
Huzzah for changing history. Last year they met at a party.
He didn't ask the second question because he has been in love another time. With Wilson...They so pwn each other...seriously only blind people would miss it.
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Time is a relative concept.